Tonight I had a freak out.
I cry a lot, but by cry I mean there are a lot of things that get me choked up and make a few tears come out,
but tonight I started crying and couldn't stop.
About not being able to get a job, about being mad at some people, about being sad for others, about not being able to pull off a good grade in a stats class, and mostly about the realization that my career as an athlete is basically over and that it's hard for other people to understand why that is so depressing; and maybe it's so depressing because sports were the only thing I ever saw improvement with myself in.
Just one of those nights, eh?
Ah mad! I hope you are feeling better! I'll see you tonight :) 08!
ReplyDeleteSo much to weave my thøtz upon
ReplyDelete(looooooooooove go-carts: gotta
summoe in our story which you’ll
find at the literal end of this post):
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So I kinda ‘died’ in our accident in ‘85, yet
while in a coma for ten? days, I looked-up
and saw God’s HUGE castle in the clouds
many miles away: bright-blue-sky, flags
waving high, green, peace, but! alas! the
Voice sed, ‘Not Time Yet’ (= prove yourself
worthy to be My disciple). FIAT (Latin: I will)
Think I’m crazy as a loony bird??
You’re correct, sez Ed McMahon.
Nothin else I want, young women:
love/serve you 4 eternityXeternity.
+ NOPEcantELOPE.blogspot.com +
Cya Upstairs, gorgeous wildflower.